information, the internet & me. [and a poem called "sugar nest"]

I don't really understand most blogs.  People writing aimlessly and I doubt that the majority of them get read.  But it's cathartic to write and to get things out "in the open."  You could almost say that the internet can be the epitome of this idea and the antithesis.  However it boils down, I like to share my "poetry" and I like to read the words of my dear, lost but never forgotten friend.  So at least there's that.


And there's this:  my new poem.  It may become a song.  But I haven't written in so long it's an accomplish that I even got this down.

if I were you I wouldn’t look so smug.

no I’d wipe that grin right off my face.

i wouldn’t wear my head all cocked to the side

like it’s lop-sided on the inside.

but I’ve got your methadone

your method drones on in my head

I turned my headphones on loud

just to try to drown you out.

so when you saunter, you swagger

you stumble on my living room rug

I’ve got no problem picking you back up.

no I’ve got no problem at all.

and you’ve lost your cigarettes 

you’ve lost your sugar nest

and I’ve always got your lighter,

yes I’ve always got my light on.

but if I were you I wouldn’t look so smug.

no I’d wipe that grin right off my face.


Also, I'm finally quitting my job with Bob.  Well, I technically quit Thursday, but he didn't acknowledge it or believe it until today.  I only feel slightly relieved.  Yes, I won't have to work for him anymore, but I'm there anyway, so I'm still dealing with the same crap.  The light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter, though.  In a good way.  Not a dead way.


It was a highly productive evening, which it needed to be.  JD is an amazing person.  I have decided not to take up another pointless part time job that will only distract me further and begin developing my career as a professional musician.  JD completely supports me (well, mostly) in this potentially risky endeavor.  It is an inopportune time in economic history to be turning down jobs, but this is something I feel passionately about and I know that we would be much better off if I could actually start bringing in the money that I am worth and that I know I can earn if I just put my mind and energy to it.  So hopefully it pays off.